Munajat of the Fearful

بِسْمِ اللَّهِ الرَّحْمَنِ الرَّحِيمِ

In the Name of God, the All-Beneficent, the All-Merciful.

إِلَهِي أَ تَرَاكَ بَعْدَ الْإِيمَانِ بِكَ تُعَذِّبُنِي أَمْ بَعْدَ حُبِّي إِيَّاكَ تُبَعِّدُنِي أَمْ مَعَ رَجَائِي لِرَحْمَتِكَ وَ صَفْحِكَ تَحْرِمُنِي أَمْ مَعَ اسْتِجْارَتِي بِعَفْوِكَ تُسْلِمُنِي حَاشَا لِوَجْهِكَ الْكَرِيمِ أَنْ تُخَيِّبَنِي لَيْتَ شِعْرِي أَ لِلشَّقَاءِ وَلَدَتْنِي أُمِّي أَمْ لِلْعَنَاءِ رَبَّتْنِي فَلَيْتَهْا لَمْ تَلِدْنِي وَ لَمْ تُرَبِّنِي وَ لَيْتَنِي عَلِمْتُ أَ مِنْ أَهْلِ السَّعَادَةِ جَعَلْتَنِي وَ بِقُرْبِكَ وَ جِوَارِكَ خَصَصْتَنِي فَتَقَرَّ بِذَلِكَ عَيْنِي وَ تَطْمَئِنَّ لَهُ نَفْسِي إِلَهِي هَلْ تُسَوِّدُ وُجُوهاً خَرَّتْ سَاجِدَةً لِعَظَمَتِكَ أَوْ تُخْرِسُ أَلْسِنَةً نَطَقَتْ بِالثَّنَاءِ عَلَى مَجْدِكَ وَ جَلالَتِكَ أَوْ تَطْبَعُ عَلَى قُلُوبٍ انْطَوَتْ عَلَى مَحَبَّتِكَ أَوْ تُصِمُّ أَسْمَاعاً تَلَذَّذَتْ بِسَمَاعِ ذِكْرِكَ فِي إِرَادَتِكَ

My God, would You, after my faith in You, chastise me? Or after my love for You, drive me away? Or despite my hope for Your mercy and Your forgiveness, deprive me? Or despite my seeking refuge in Your pardon, hand me over? Far be it from Your Noble Face that You should disappoint me! Would that I knew: was it for wretchedness that my mother bore me, or for hardship that she raised me? Would that she had not borne me and had not raised me! And would that I knew whether You have made me one of the people of felicity, and singled me out for Your nearness and Your neighbourhood, so that my eye might be delighted by that and my soul be at peace with it. My God, will You blacken faces that have fallen down prostrate before Your grandeur, or strike dumb tongues that have spoken in praise of Your glory and Your majesty, or set a seal on hearts that have enfolded love for You, or deafen ears that have delighted in hearing Your remembrance in their desire for You,

أَوْ تَغُلُّ أَكُفّاً رَفَعَتْهَا الْآمَالُ إِلَيْكَ رَجَاءَ رَأْفَتِكَ أَوْ تُعَاقِبُ أَبْدَاناً عَمِلَتْ بِطَاعَتِكَ حَتَّى نَحِلَتْ فِي مُجَاهَدَتِكَ أَوْ تُعَذِّبُ أَرْجُلاً سَعَتْ فِي عِبَادَتِكَ إِلَهِي لا تُغْلِقْ عَلَى مُوَحِّدِيكَ أَبْوَابَ رَحْمَتِكَ وَ لا تَحْجُبْ مُشْتَاقِيكَ عَنِ النَّظَرِ إِلَى جَمِيلِ رُؤْيَتِكَ إِلَهِي نَفْسٌ أَعْزَزْتَهَا بِتَوْحِيدِكَ كَيْفَ تُذِلُّهَا بِمَهَانَةِ هِجْرَانِكَ وَ ضَمِيرٌ انْعَقَدَ عَلَى مَوَدَّتِكَ كَيْفَ تُحْرِقُهُ بِحَرَارَةِ نِيرَانِكَ إِلَهِي أَجِرْنِي مِنْ أَلِيمِ غَضَبِكَ وَ عَظِيمِ سَخَطِكَ يَا حَنَّانُ يَا مَنَّانُ يَا رَحِيمُ يَا رَحْمَانُ يَا جَبَّارُ يَا قَهَّارُ يَا غَفَّارُ يَا سَتَّارُ نَجِّنِي بِرَحْمَتِكَ مِنْ عَذَابِ النَّار وَ فَضِيحَةِ الْعَارِ إِذَا امْتَازَ الْأَخْيَارُ مِنَ الْأَشْرَارِ وَ حَالَتِ الْأَحْوَالُ وَ هَالَتِ الْأَهْوَالُ وَ قَرُبَ الْمُحْسِنُونَ وَ بَعُدَ الْمُسِيئُونَ وَ وُفِّيَتْ كُلُّ نَفْسٍ مَا كَسَبَتْ وَ هُمْ لا يُظْلَمُونَ

or shackle hands that hopes have raised to You in hope of Your tenderness, or punish bodies that have worked in obedience to You until they wasted away in striving for You, or chastise feet that have hastened in worship of You? My God, do not lock the doors of Your mercy against those who profess Your oneness, and do not veil those who yearn for You from gazing upon the beauty of beholding You. My God, a soul You have honoured with the profession of Your oneness, how could You abase it with the humiliation of Your abandonment? And an inmost self that is bound fast in love for You, how could You burn it with the heat of Your fires? My God, shelter me from Your painful anger and Your great wrath. O All-Compassionate, O Bestower of favours, O All-Merciful, O All-Beneficent, O Compeller, O All-Subduing, O All-Forgiving, O Concealer of faults, deliver me by Your mercy from the chastisement of the Fire and the disgrace of shame, when the good are set apart from the wicked, and states are transformed, and terrors grow dreadful, and those who did good draw near and those who did evil are far off, and every soul is paid in full for what it has earned, and they are not wronged.